I was getting Chris, my 16 yo son with cerebral palsy, ready for school this morning, and Barney was singing a song on the DVD, "You are my hero."
I told Chris he is my hero, and I mean that 100%.
What is a hero? Chris is a transparent window beaming sunshine effortlessly all day long. He doesn't try to be loving, he can't help but be loving- it's just who he is.
Lately I'm feeling more keenly this formless life energy that I am, that Chris is, that we all are, the invisible spring beneath the body and mind. I'm noticing that it wants to move, to go along in the invisible current of life that is right here now beneath all the mind's stories of unhappiness, and that I can feel its quiet pulse and follow it. I whisper in its ear, "What would you like to do?" and I feel it move within me.
Eckhart Tolle has said that he doesn't ask so much, "What do I want?" Rather, he asks, "What does Life want?" In the end they turn out to be the same question, for I and Life are one and the same. But due to confusions of language and mind, the word "I" is also used to mean its opposite, which is ego, the pseudo-self that is an object made out of thoughts and images, created by mind activity. The true I is anatta, egolessness, the formless being that we all share, that is one.
Chris can't walk or talk, yet he is clearly more productive and contributes more to this world than many CEO's ever will. He is the hero of my heart. Thank you Chris for Being, the greatest gift of all.
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