Relaxing

Relaxing, the ache comes back. Relaxing opens the door that blocked out the ache.

It's the ache without a name, the ache without a reason, it's in the sternum and there is a tugging sensation. Birth pains? The heart a womb, a birth canal, and something is trying to get through.

I don't know what.

But for perhaps the first time ever I notice joy under the pain, for the pain is sharp with life, and it feels so good to be alive.