Unglued is an apt term, and often, a good thing.
I came unglued during some drama with my family yesterday. My upset-button got pushed, not by my family, but by my believed thoughts.
Un-gluing is painful, like birth pangs, the birth of openness, the birth of nothingness, the void.
My self-image was threatened and a cascade of protective measures shot into action in the form of blaming, accusing, projecting, shouting, arguing. Protecting what? Protecting the cherished idea in the head of who I am. Protecting the image in the mind's mirror.
Unglued, pulled apart, taken off the pedestal in my own mind. Who do I think I am?
Today there's some fasting, some thought fasting. There's a part of me that is sick-unto-death-of-thoughts-about-me.
Those me-thoughts clunk themselves out, self-reflection is an old habit, but at least I'm a bit unglued from the insanity in my head.
And I've apologized to my family, both in spoken and written words, and my apology is real, and I wish to make repairs and amends however I can, and life goes on. And I hope the thought-structures of the imagined egoic identity become more unglued in the usual bumps and bruises of daily living.
Let all the bombs be inside of me not outside of me and let them blow away delusion.
Gratitude for photo: http://blog.mozilla.com/faaborg/2007/10/