A Window is Where the Wall is Absent

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Friday, April 9, 2010

Not knowing

To the ego, not knowing is frustrating.

To the soul, not knowing is ecstasy.



"Not knowing does not signify dullness, or having no interest or curiosity.  On the contrary, I would imagine it to be a condition of unusual aliveness...As if our own small breath became joined to the big breath of the world-  which it always is, of course, except now we know it to be so; not as a piece of information, but as a movement of the blood."

(Roger Housden, commentary on "The Mind of Absolute Trust" by Seng- Ts'an)

When I notice the mind clamped down on an imagined "need to know", I step back and take a breath.  There is enormous relaxation in the acceptance of not knowing.

What is not known will always be a vaster field than what is known; why not accept this fact?  The field of not knowing can be entered and enjoyed.  It is a quiet place full of wonder.


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2 comments:

Susannah said...

Not knowing feels like a field of limitless possibilities. . . true freedom.

Knowing feels confined, defined . . . the story - told.

I embrace not knowing.

Thanks Colleen for another lovely post. :-)

Colleen Loehr said...

Hi Susannah,
When you say that not knowing feels like freedom, that opens up the space of not knowing for me even further. Thank you for feeling the freedom of this space of not knowing. Not knowing becomes a portal out of the mind-prison and into the freedom of living undefined. Thank you for joining me in this felt-exploration of the field of not knowing.

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